I wrote this journal a week ago but thought I'd share here as well. After my first workout with the trainer I barely made it to the washroom before I threw up four times! Today was my second workout and I came home so happy and excited I wanted to hug everyone. I had so much energy it was strange!

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I decided to stop making excuses, accept responsibility, and be more accountable (to me). I have been making excuses for so many years, using my illness as a crutch and blaming anything and everything on something that is no longer an issue. So it has taken me over five years to come to this conclusion but better now than never.

Anyways, on Sunday I called the World Health Club www.worldhealthclub.com - the Sport Club is a 3 minute drive from my house - and asked them to sign me up (I used to go there after I met this guy on Naseeb who told me I had "a very pretty face but was too fat"...now that is a whole other story). Ten minutes later I had signed up for a full year membership and booked 96 personal training sessions. Yeah, 96 one hour sessions one-on-one with a trainer. I am scheduled for Mon/Wed/Fri from 8 am to 9 am and I start next Wednesday. Maybe buying that many was a little overboard but I think it shows my level of commitment. I am going to do my own cardio at the gym on Tues/Thursdays, maybe even Saturdays. I also met with the nutritionist on staff who is going to get me on a meal plan (I like "meal plan" instead of "diet").

Anyway, I mentioned this to a few people and they seem to be so negative and discouraging. I have come to the conclusion that people react this way when they see that someone has something they do not have or cannot have or do not want to spend the money to get. What do you think? I mean why is it that people cannot say, "Oh, that is fabulous!" or "Good for you!"? I would even settle for "It is about time you got your *ss to the gym"!

So anyway, I had heard the term "gym bunny" before and said to a friend that I was going to be a gym bunny. I thought it was something cute until my friend said that sounded gay. I searched on the internet and this is what I got:

Gym Bunny
1). A gay man who spends an obsessive amount of time in the gym working on sculpting his body -- not for health reasons -- only to show it off in a club or on the beach.
2). A (often gay or bisexual) man obsessed with his own body. His days are spent working out for his next circuit party, taking GHB, and doing steroids. Usually gym bunnies have low IQ's, and high opinions of themselves. Outside of the gym, gym-bunnies congregate in large gay discos, circuit parties, and bath-houses.
3). A female with more tits than knowledge about exercise, who wears the most expensive gear out there, and only goes to the gym to "do abs" and cardio
4). Someone who spends large amounts of time working out for the sole purpose of 'looking ripped'. Can be male or female, always extremely vain and superficial.

The difference between a gym bunny and someone who just works out a lot is the latter exercises to be able to do physical stuff like move heavy objects on a regular basis, whereas the gym bunny does it exclusively for visual reasons and probably couldn't do anything with those perfectly toned muscles if they had to. Three ways to tell if someone is a gym bunny:

i. They're amazingly well-sculpted but still seem unable to do anything involving physical labor.
ii. Often talk with friends about how much time they spend at the gym and overtly cut meetings and social events short because they have to get to the gym.
iii. Act as if their physical fitness by itself makes them better than others.

I guess the only definition that is remotely close would be the third one?

Yay me! I am so excited!!!