(Please excuse any some spelling and grammar error.) - sorry ji ;)

last message i didnt get a chance to give her

I still like you baby. In fact I adore everything about you. :) I know you have been hurt so many times in the past talking to all these guys and it's hard to trust anyone again. However, I will try my best to earn your trust again if I get that chance in the future. I know I need to be the uttermost patient guy out there and it may be hard to know that you are all I want and need in need life, but I will do my best to wait patiently.



You are right in saying to keep one eye open for someone else, but I haven't give up on you completely. I pray that you find someone before I do or maybe you already have? It's hard for me, because all I do is think about you day and night waiting to hear your voice on the other line. Sometimes I wonder if time ceases to exist, just because it feels like an eternity when I don't hear your voice.


I know that my living in my state is very difficult for you, but if I didn't want you to be the woman in my life, for all the days of our life, I wouldn't try so hard. Yet I am the one willing to uproot my life here in my state just to move to your state to be with you. I am the one taking all the risk; so why do you believe I might be just another one to hurt you? If I hurt you, obviously I will be hurting myself also. All I want is to give you the love you so much deserve. What is wrong with that? :(


These days, I can only wait and make Dua. Sometimes I get mixed signals from you. One day you seem interested; the next your telling me there's more fish in the sea. Can you imagine the confusion I go through inside my head at night?



Every night and day that goes by I can't help but miss you. Wanting to be with you and to hold you, ever so close to my heart just like the thing you gave me as gift. I want to gently touch your face and cup your cheek in my hand as I look into your beautiful eyes. I want to snuggle and cuddle with you, to just be close to you. I want to hold your hand across the table at a restaurant. I want others in the restaurant to be jealous of our intimacy and our tender affection for one another. I want to lie next to you in front of a fire and gaze into your eyes while I tell you how much I love you and adore you. I want you to know how beautiful you are in my eyes. I want you to know how much I cherish you. I want to give my heart to you, I want your heart, and I want it all. So, give me 1 more chance to make it work...:(

And if this makes me crazy, then I shall be committed to an asylum. However, you are the only person that can make me sane. You are the center of my heart. I love you and I do understand where we stand, but if you don't find anyone by the end then I am coming to your state and marrying you no matter what.;) I still hope in my Dil that you get married before that time comes someday. (Insha-Allah)


I am sorry for writing you another long email; I guess I want to express my feelings to you. It was really nice to hear you voice once again and I am not expecting you to reply to this email or any other. This is just my way of expressing myself to you. Being apart this past month has made me look deeper inside myself and I will follow the Rule that we agreed to trying to keep it limited in be touch. Don't think I don't think about you, because I know you think about me too sweetie.



Stay happy and safe; don't forget to smile baby know as my Miss Rule.



Wa?salaam



Love N Peace,


-Unknown for now :)