Yesterday

On days like today, when there's a blizzard outside... all i want to do is curl up in bed with a book and a warm cup of tea and watch the snow flakes fall from the dark sky and cover the roofs, the paths, and the trees...
days like today make me contemplative...reminiscent of the past, reflect on things I have suppressed for so long..
It's been over a year since...it's hard to believe but time does pass...i used to wonder how i will survive without...yet here i am...time doesn't stop...things happen...you keep on living...life goes on..
i guess i'm at the point now where i feel ready to look back and try to make sense of what happened...the question is...do i want to do that? do i want to open that pandora's box when i have avoided it for so long? do i want to risk feeling vulnerable...weak..again? perhaps even losing the emotional stability I've worked so hard for....or do i let it be...let it stay in the past...and continue living the way i have been...potentially with unresolved issues...