The Company that Misery Brings

Some transitions in life are smooth while others are rough,
Some people you cut off like chopping wood, others are hard to let go of.

It all goes back to the tussle that ensues between the heart and mind,
If any matter sends these two into dispute, then its best to leave it behind.

Or you could be a glutton for torment, torture, and pain,
Enjoying the bliss of attachment, while in agony and disdain.

In a woman I once thought that I had found the epitome of perfection,
So much in awe, I stood by her side as close as her reflection.

Initially the more I saw the more I felt the intoxication of infatuation’s buzz,
Then I saw more and more and realized she wasn’t who I thought she was.

Maybe she was always like that and I only saw what I wanted to see,
I just wanted to get closer and forever with her I’d be.

Then came the point when I did not want to utter another word and my infatuation was at its end,
Coinciding with the growing void in my heart because I knew I’d be alone again.

Why do we do this to ourselves, burning our hearts while holding on to hope,
Wouldn’t it be better to be dangling free from a scaffold rope?

Tear open my heart and throw it onto the ground,
Let the last thing I hear to be its beating sound.

A person such as me deserves no bliss or pity, only misery,
For I put myself into hopeless situations, its easy for any imbecile to see.

Realizing that life is cold and we are all fodder for those whose hearts are selfish and minds are keen ,
Throw me into the abyss of eternity and let me never again be seen.

AMA '15